In Pursuit...

I feel like I've been pursuing something for the past 9-months and at every turn, every one of the doors seems to close. I'm confused, hurt, and unsure of where the Lord is leading me.

I have had one interview for a position that I very, very, very much would enjoy and would be doing a job that would utilize so many of my gifts and passion of serving others. I'm currently waiting to hear if I am going to be called back for a second interview.

To say these past couple of months have been a "desert" time is an understatement. It's been one of the most difficult years of my life.

I have some friends with whom I worked with in Sweden and Scotland as part of their live production team. John and Donna have such a special place in my heart. I relish every time I get to "chat" with them online.

In one such chat, John asked me what I was doing at the end of this month and proceeded to ask me if I would be able to come up to Canada and do some stills photography of a conference he and his team were working on.

It seems God TV decided they wanted to cover the conference and Johns' son, Matthew, has been snagged to be a video camera operator. Matthew was scheduled to be the conference stills photographer and when John lost him as the stills photographer, he said I was the first person he thought of.

Now, I cannot begin to tell you how much this meant to me.

My passport expired on my birthday back in August. At the time, I never really thought there was a need to renew it. "When in the world am I going to be going any time soon?"

The position I'm waiting to hear about a second interview is an oversees position. I renewed my passport shortly after applying for the job and only got my new passport back 2 weeks ago. Had I not done that, I would not have been able to say yes to John when he asked me if I could come up and have a great time doing one of my passions and spending some quality time with some amazing people.

The Lord has not left me, even though I leave Him every chance I get.

Oh, this is not the end of this story.

I was on Facebook a day later and I get a chat message from Anne. She was one of my staff members when I was in the School of Video Production down in South Africa.

Annie is from Nigeria and has pioneered the school there. She asked me if I was available within the first three months of next year to come and teach on the school.

WOW!!!

I'm still frustrated, but my upcoming trip to see some very dear friends and take some great photos of some wonderful worship and teaching has lifted my mood. And although I don't know if I will be able to go to Nigeria to teach a topic on video production, it was a great boost to be asked.

I only want to be in pursuit of the Lord's plans for my life and the past 9-months I've been in pursuit of my own future. And as all of you who know me knows, I'm a high control person. I don't like not knowing where I'm going or where I stand and this is what makes patience so hard for me.

So, next week I'll be doing more posting than I have been since school started. Take a peek.

On one last note, I would also appreciate prayer with regards to the second job interview. As I said, this is a position I would very much like to do and serve a group of some of the most amazing people from our country.